Anxiety, panic attack, depression, ADHD, emotional and mental abuse. These things I've struggled with for years. Most of it was in silence for over 10 years with only a selected few who knew.
A few years ago, I finally had the courage to talk about my past of emotional and mental abuse. Most of it my family didn't know all of it and there's the thing I still don't talk about. When I finally opened up and wrote about it I instantly felt sick to my stomach. I felt I would be judged, and ridiculed, I was embarrassed, but I wasn't. What happened instead was I had an abundance of love and support, I built amazing relationships with others who have gone through the same trauma as I did and had no idea they went through these things.
Emotional and mental trauma is hard to heal. It takes so much soul-searching and so much healing. I finally went to therapy last year and it was the best decision I made it was the last piece I needed to my puzzle of healing. I don't take medication, this is my personal preference as I've learned to cope with most of this my entire life especially my ADHD on my own. I utilize exercise, I'm careful with my diet, use natural supplements and the icing is therapy.
I am incredibly thankful for my husband Colin who helps me daily and tells me I never need to explain myself or why I am the way I am because he loves me no matter what. He has taught me that not all men will hurt me and that there are amazing men out there. He tames me, keeps me grounded, and makes me feel safe, he feels like my home, he's my soulmate.
My best friend Kimmy is another light in my life who is the reason I got into therapy. She’s been a blessing coming into my life and what real friendship is supposed to be like. She's extroverted and very much gets me out of my comfort zone, she is one of my biggest cheerleaders, and she teaches me something daily.
My mom & stepdad are always there for me when I need to vent or cry. Who are always there to give me advice when I need it. It's like intuition and they know I need someone to talk to cause they always phone or come to visit at those times. Gut intuition is an amazing thing.
My amazing SIL @noelanigalbraith @juniphermeetsnorthoflove lets me have a voice to help others like me and I was able to tell my story for the first time out loud. This was a huge step in my healing process and make talking about this part of my life a little easier. So many women & men came out after to tell me their stories. So many suffer in silence, due to fear, embarrassment, or judgment.
There are many more lights in my life and you know who you are. We need more kindness in our cruel world of ours, we need compassion, understanding, and love.
Please Please 🙏 If you’re struggling please my door is always open. My home is a judgment-free zone! ❤